Everyone is wishing their fathers happy father's day. Here I am, tears flowing out once again at the thought of you. I miss you, I think about you. But I don't know why... I just can't get you out of my mind! I wonder why...
To my dearest daddy, I love you! And, you're the best person ever in my life! (:
Right now, I think I should go sleep, because I won't be thinking about you I guess. So, nights everyone. (:
burdens
problems
unhappiness
fear
insecurity
grief
trials/tribulations
being abandoned
Does that mean that you need to end your life? don't be silly, move on and live life to the fullest! (: and, remember if no one loves you, God does. He is always faithful, always there and He will comfort you! No point dwelling on something that has already happened and you can't change anything now, because God has His purpose for us, His own timing for each and everything that we are blessed with and even the problems we face. He knows what we are going, when we do wrong things, and He knows how many strands of hair is on our heads. So, cheer up people, do not end your life over a small matter/issue.
God gave us life, with a purpose. Who are we to say that maybe I jump off the building and I no longer need to care/worry about anything and everything. It is a very irresponsible act of you to end your life, what about the people whom you loved the most and vice versa? What about your friends, colleagues, relatives and even people whom you think they don't care but they actually do? Cherish your life, because all these things that you are going through you are not on your own. Millions of others in this world are facing natural disasters, famine, drought, loss of loved ones/properties/identity.
People, time to reflect on our true purpose of being here as a human being, do what we are supposed to do. Students/Children/Parents/NS men/working people/housewives/grandparents, do your part well not to be recognized but rather give your best in every little thing that you do!
i hate the way i put on fake smiles and leaving an impression that i am always happy. i am sick and tired of it.
ALONE AT HOME AGAIN, THE COLDNESS MAKE ME FEEL HUNGRY AGAIN! ):
Is not that I don't like the weather, but then... It makes me feel hungry easily and I wish you are talking to me now.
Anyways, training later on. @ Clementi. =.=
Yesterday, did nothing much besides facing the computer and playing some games. It is very weird to be alone at home at times, when you really need someone to talk. Was talking to Nicholas on MSN last night! (: Conversation was great! (: As you all go for the june camp, hope you all will be spiritually encouraged to continue to walk in the light. (: Will be praying for you all over here in Singapore! (:
Anyways, this is my first week of holidays and I am at home facing the computer. Which means I have not started working and I am very far away from my goal of saving money for the next school term. A lot of things been happening, but I am alright already. Sometimes, I think we just need to learn to take a step back and see what is exactly happening. Only then we will know what is wrong and how to correct/prevent it.
This holidays I am having work, trainings, sentosa with THEM<3, inter-coc soccer, famiLCy bonding @ Syaz's house, class chalet and clearing up the house. (: But chalet, I can only be there on the first day I guess, Thursday I am having training, not sure if I will drop by after training which is about 7plus 8. ): Busy, busy busy!
and I miss you! Seriously, you were the one willing to sacrifice just to make me smile even though I was upset or when I am really really tired. But all this will have to stop here. Right here, right now. Because there is no turning back, we can only let go and move on in our lives even as we go our separate ways. (: Thanks for all those lovely memories you gave, is not a dream nor a fantasy, but it made me felt that I was important to you. And, I will keep them in my heart. (: Thank you!
And, moving on, I think I am so going to enjoy myself with this holiday busy with work, training, going out with them<3/famiLCy, the inter-coc soccer! HAHA. (: But I know Tiffany is much more busy than me! Sigh! ): Netball and Badminton trainings are going to be tough! Jiayou alright? Play well and play for the pol-ite games! (: Love you!
And, I seriously miss trainings with Joanne, Nurul and 闭嘴! (: Wonder how you girls are doing! Miss you all lots! (:
Anyways, that shall be all.
*Loves you people always, and you girls and guys are not forgotten! (:
*(chorus only)
相信你只是怕伤害我，不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得，把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了，用心酸微笑去原谅了
也翻越了，有昨天还是好的
但明天是自己的，
开始懂了，快乐是选择
I just don't really understand why people will ignore each other. According to what the other party says about being able to read my mind and stuffs, I guess you really know how I really really feel right? Is not that I purposely trying to play with you over the phone, is just too sudden, and I don't know how to answer.
If ignoring me is the best option then all I can say is, my answer would be what you want to hear. (: You're always important to me. And, if I could turn back time, I don't want you to ignore me. I'm sorry.
Ignore me for all you want. Because I know that no matter what I want to say or what I am going to say doesn't matter to you anymore.
I really don't know what else I can do to make you stop ignoring me, but I guess you won't want to listen to what I want to say in reply to all your questions and they won't make any difference.
There is training tomorrow, without them again.
Holidays are here, and I better start working soon. *(need to pay off bills and get my shoes)
Time to start saving up money. (:
That is all for now.
I feel very disappointed with what Joanne told me today while we were in the canteen. But it is all over already, I seriously think that I do not need to be disappointed because I know that you're that kind of person. I have no right to say what you said is wrong, neither can I say that I am a perfect and good student. Right now, I just hope that you can get out of my life like now and stop doing all those things just to show everyone that I am not good or something. Because this makes me hate you even more as each day pass by.
Anyways, went to the Choa Chu Kang Campus today, and I want to thank Jun Ci, Tiffany, Joanne and Tim for talking to me. You all made me felt so much better than what I was feeling in the morning. I know that in life there will definitely be disappointments, immature people that Tim labels them as but I will be able to walk out of all these nonsense because I am going to adapt to everything. I don't want to care about who dislike who in class, who likes who in class and I don't want to care about anything anymore. I just want to be a good student next term, be early for school and study hard to get good grades. The rest doesn't really matter.
If you dislike me, just tell me straight in my face, no need to do all those things. Seriously, just get out of my life and I would be more than happy to just treat you like a normal friend that at least still say Hi and Bye to each other.
I finally know who are the true friends I have be it in church or in school. I really appreciate you girls and guys for always being there for me. Trying so hard to cheer me up, to make me laugh my hearts out, to remind me not to shed a tear for this kind of thing. I am always glad to have Angelin, Jun Ci, Ah Lei, Tiffany, Joanne, Nehe, Chao, Tim and Eugene. Thanks for always being there to listen to all my problems, frustrations, disappointments and also when I share all my happy stuffs with I guess.
I will remember what Daddy taught me. (: So I am not going to feel disappointed because I am going to prove to all those who think negatively of me. (: Thanks Daddy! (: ILY<3
That shall be all for now. Nothing much to blog for today.
